9 months!

This picture was talken dec.15. they r so dang cute! God has blessed us with such WONDERFUL kids! I don't care what anyone says! They are such good kids! They love their hugs and especially their kisses! They are 9 months today! My goodnice! Mitch says DADA and claps and sits. Milly crawls ALL AROUND! she says DADA too, she has a round butt so she is not as good as sitting but she is getting it! They both are such smart kids! They really have their own personalities! it is great! I LOVE BEING A MOMMY!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 2010 SUCKS ALREADY!

Happy New Year Everyone!!! So 2010 came like a ton of bricks!!! Both of my kids have pink eye and my husband is sick and my lady friend came New Years night! and we are strugling with money! WHAT IS NEW!!! So for my new years goalS>>>>>

1) Serve God MORE!
2) Be a happier Person!
3) Be with Family More!
4) stick to a budget and pay off some bills!
5) change a bad mood in to a positive experiance!
6) KIDS! KIDS! KIDS! They are my shining light! okay and my Husband!

Having a HARD TIme~

So in the last 3 months I have had 2 young women that just had babies die. My sister-in-law's sister and a good friend from church! This last one hit me like a TON of bricks! My heart is just broken! I just CAN NOT image how my sister-in-law feels loosing her only sister! There are some days where I am just paralyzed and I have a very hard time! I think about "if that happened to me" "If I die today what would I need to take care of before that day come?" What do my kids need to know or have? What bills have to be paid? (I do all the bills) What does my husband need to know how and what to do? Does everyone know I LOVE THEM! How would my kids feel? Would my husband be able to handle everything with out me? WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT SHOULD I BE DOING WITH MY LIFE? AM I WHERE GOD WHATS ME TO BE? I just have so many Questions and NO ANSWERS!!!!! I really have to get in touch with GOD MORE!!! He has all the ANSWERS!!!

The kids are opening their stockings. They had fun pulling stuff our of there! They were so much fun. I just wish we didn't have to go to so many places in 2 days! Everyone want to spend time with them and we just didn't have time for everyone! I was getting craby! But Christmas time is always fun!

Crawl in a hole moment.....

So did you ever have a crawl in a hole moment..... I did at the Thanksgiving table....So we are going around the table saying what we are Thankful for and we get to my sister-in-law that just lost her sister about 2 months ago, and bright me says, "you could be thankful for "Life"" WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKINg. Yes for me I am VERY VERY THANKFUL FOR LIFE! I have a differnt situation! And as soon as those words came out of my month I WANTED TO CRAWL IN THE HOLE!!! Have you ever had a crawl in a hole moment......

Growing to Fast!

How can this happen! They are growing way to fast for there mommy! Mitchell yes is sitting all by him self! Milly I can not keep her in one spot for more then a sec. They are just getting to big I tell you! I have for the most part decided that we are just going to have two kids! As they are moving more and more each day I just can not keep up with them! I am so tired when I go to bed that it is not even funny!!! Trying to work 40 hours a week, do the laurdry, dishes, give bathes to the kids and myself, feed them, change them and spend some time with them! I just can't keep up with it all!!! I feel bad right now I have my daughter on my lap while i am typing and my son is sleeping on the floor! I am just getting woren out! ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS SLEEP AND ME TIME! Don't get me wrong I love my kids to death, but they ware you out!!! but I am on the 5 year plan! In 5 years my husband is either getting fixed or we are having another one. So I will make that decion at that time I will be 32 years old! Right now I have everything I could ever dream of a boy and a girl and a wonderful husband! What else do I need! Thankful for Life! That is a whole new blog for a different day! Or in the next minute!

Sorry.....

This picture is from there dedication on October 24th, 2009 we had about 30 people there to support us. It was a great day! Thank you God for suck Wonderful kids!

Sorry i have been slacking here but we did not have a power cord for a while. We are back. The kids are getting so big! I can not beleive how big they are getting! I wish i could stay home and make sure they learn everything they need to! I just worry about not teaching them enough or reading to them enought ( I am not a big reader AT ALL!!!) I just pray to God that they are smart like there daddy! I just want them to be the best they can do!